Settling... that sounds like such an ugly term. Nobody wants to settle but sometimes is happens accidently. What I mean is at the time you don't realize you are doing it. Everything is wonderful, there are some things in the back of your mind that bug you but nothing you can't deal with. But then one day all of the warm, fuzzies that took the sting out of the things that were bugging you are gone and then, WHOA! All you can say is wft?! How did this happen?
But what do you do then? How do you go back to the way things were? I don't want to regret this but I don't know how to just be happy with the way things have gotten to be with out letting the best part of myself die. How could I give up myself for something that is less than what I deserve?
I just don't know. So for now I bury it deep down and wait for an answer.
Saturday, April 16, 2011
Thursday, April 14, 2011
I'm Back!
I feel like I can breathe again! My computer, which I did not realize I am so attached to, is home. Thank you to the Best Buy geek squad for taking such good care of it while it was away. I took it in for a missing key and it came home with a new cd drive, a new mother board and a whole new keyboard. Also thank you to my hubby for letting use his netbook while I was without a laptop. I complained the whole time but am truly grateful. Now on to the good stuff...
My baby has started his summer vacation early out at my grandparents, for lack of a better term, mini-ranch. I am back at work full time and hating every second of it. In a moment of lowered standards I took a job at a call center. I was previously unaware what that was like but now know more than I ever wanted to. With rules like "You may not groom, massage or bite your neighbor". Thanks guys, I really needed that one cleared up. Now I am left with finding other ways to resolve my neighborly disputes since biting is out of the question. There are four other pages of rules that are very similar in nature. I never would have guessed that this stuff needs to be mentioned in an adult working environment, but apparently I do not work in an adult environment.
With that, I am making the all too obvious statement that my job search will continue and getting the hell out of there will be my motivation! (Let's just hope I can fight the urge to bite someone in the mean time, lol)
My baby has started his summer vacation early out at my grandparents, for lack of a better term, mini-ranch. I am back at work full time and hating every second of it. In a moment of lowered standards I took a job at a call center. I was previously unaware what that was like but now know more than I ever wanted to. With rules like "You may not groom, massage or bite your neighbor". Thanks guys, I really needed that one cleared up. Now I am left with finding other ways to resolve my neighborly disputes since biting is out of the question. There are four other pages of rules that are very similar in nature. I never would have guessed that this stuff needs to be mentioned in an adult working environment, but apparently I do not work in an adult environment.
With that, I am making the all too obvious statement that my job search will continue and getting the hell out of there will be my motivation! (Let's just hope I can fight the urge to bite someone in the mean time, lol)
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